I had recently posted a status on FB on a similiar topic a few days ago which incidentally is close to my answer for today’s topic, Day 03: Something with which you struggle. My post was as below.
Friends and family protested (bless them!) but, contrary to what some of them thought, I was actually completely serious and definitely not on a ‘fishing’ trip on this. I really think that one of the problems about me – is that, although I can do a variety of tasks and am capable of various skills – my score on each of those tasks and skills are probably at best 3.5 out of 5. Basically one of the things that I am struggling with about myself is that I
am talentless don’t have a skill that I am 5/5 about.
Take for instance, the one skill I can do, and I love doing which is singing. No matter how many performances I make, I am very much grounded to the fact that I am an average singer at best (being the best singer in college doesn’t count, cause it was a small subset of the population!). Or the next competency I have and like: talking. Although my mother has told me this is my best skill, I disagree because (a) I can’t talk well in public; (b) i am too shy to ask questions in a large hall/seminar (or i worry that my question is an idiotic one); (c) my close family members say I have an annoying side in communicating especially when I ask too many questions; (d) I’m nowhere near the 10/5 score of talking legends such as, say, Oprah. So it’s not a 5/5; it’s maybe a 3.5 out of 5.
Next up: writing. Take a look at my writing in this blog – is it anywhere close to the famous bloggers? Er, no. I also lack the patience that a writer is required to have (I once wrote a short love novel which I started off well but rushed off to the end. Needless to say it remains not in public). I can write ok, and I have good English, I’ll give you that – but being a writer, a columnist or a journalist – remains just a pipe dream.
What about career skills? I am an educated engineer (but helplessly can’t even answer simple science questions – as DH has discovered – such as, how does a car engine work. I’ll end up googling it or visiting howstuffworks.com). I’m a trained chartered financial analyst with 9 years’ experience in finance (but keep having to google back for simple finance concepts which I’ve forgotten, such as equity/enterprise value or pre/post money valuation). I have decent Excel modelling skills (but have made numerous mistakes before, because I’m not detailed-oriented enough), presentation skills (nothing mind-blowing), and good report-writing skills (although I refuse to be doing this into my 40s or 50s). So that’s that.
What else? Cooking – 3/5 (recently improved from 1.5 since moving to Melbourne). Leadership skills – I once led a team of 10 analysts for nearly 2 years and, although I got validation from my team members, I never felt particularly appreciated by the top management (thus explaining why I left). Communication skills – refer to my negative side in ‘talking’ which can alienate some people who are close to me; although admittedly most other people will say I am largely good in this area. Well again maybe a 3.5 out of 5. Drawing/artistic/designing skills – at most 2.8 out of 5. I am interested in interior design and photography, but they both have aspects which I am not keen about (say, fabric design and camera technology respectively).
I would love, LOVE to be proven wrong and discover something that I am very. Very. Good. At. And that, my friends, is something I’ve been struggling with till now.